So, I just finished typing an email to my mom that contained some information she needed on my college loans for which my dad is a co-signer. It was terrifying and depressing to see how much I am in debt at such a young age. This is something that constantly hangs over my head and makes me paranoid to spend money. The last line I put in my email to my mom was "Ok, I'm going to go cry now because I am in so much debt." I really felt (and feel) very anxious and depressed about this state of things. As soon as I clicked "send" and closed the file folder that was sitting in front of me, the heavens opened and dumped down buckets of heavy rain. Of course, this was accompanied by a clash of thunder and a bolt of lightening. I'm pretty sure that that warden of the debtors prison is about to come barreling into my apartment and drag me to jail any moment. I better go batten down the hatches.


On a lighter note, it felt really good today when I checked my student account balance to make sure that everything had been paid for the semester and saw a big fat $0.00 under the current balance. Thank God for funding from the department. At least I'm not racking up more debt right now.